Hainault Board School

Friday July 13^th 1894

I am going away simply because I am too much afraid to remain in the house without protection from your violence. If you had not told the servant to go, I think perhaps I might have sufficient courage to have dragged out my weary existence here.

But alone with you in the house, after your dreadful & disgraceful treatment of me on Monday night, I could not be. I could not then lock myself in my room, since you have taken the key.

I wonder if you have any idea as to what you did on Monday – two people besides myself were partly eye witnesses & heard all they did not see.

Do you know that through your violence lumps are forming behind my ear that my shoulder is so painful that I’ve been obliged to go to the doctors & that the whole of my body is bruised & most frightfully tender.  And what for – nothing. There was no damage done to the meat at all. If there had been you can be no man to strike a woman – to set on me so brutally as you did. You said you did not care to what lengths you went, & you did not care what the consequences were, you would KILL or CURE me.

It would be suicidal to remain alone with you after that – for in my present weakened state I should be simply a log in your hands. Besides I am in fear now – I dread to hear or see you.

If you had appeared sorry it would have been different. Do not think I bear any malice – I am too grieved for that – too heartbroken -  to think it was you, YOU, who did it, YOU of whom four years ago I had such a high opinion. You see this last is not the only violence you have practised towards me and you know it. Gradually you have slipped from the high pedestal upon which I at first put you & now you have broken in pieces & are crumbling to DUST.

I do not wish it to be thought that I consider myself perfect – far from it – but with few exceptions. I have always done the best I could & if you could truly know how I have striven & worried how best to please you and get what you wanted & how very ill I have sometimes felt and for which you have never made any allowance, I think you would be very sorry & ashamed.

Georgina Hockley

I shall take shelter in one of the Homes to which I have been recommended. Artie cried very much for me to take him.