Part 2...

……… Now until I can earn my own again, what am I to do? Indeed, I had no money, until I took steps yesterday to obtain some – steps I was forced to take for the child’s sake – our dinner during the week swallowed the amount I had reserved for the washing, and I could not be with nothing for today.

If you think it will be better or rather, that you will be better, if I relieve you of my presence at once, say so, candidly & honestly – but you know, last year, when I spoke to you on the same subject, you reminded me that I know you had this house on your hands - & that fact is before me now – but perhaps you may be able to make other arrangements – if I have failed in my duty in any way, I cannot help it – I have done to the best of my strength & ability – as far as anything else goes, I can only say I am human, very human, with the exception of my honour & there I am not quite so human for I show a perfectly clean sheet.

I have just read over what I have written, but it does not in any way express what I feel, & what I have been experiencing – I am heart broken – for you know, as I have always told you, when you have been angry, I always remember the times, years ago, when you were kind to me & in thinking of the good put away the bad. Why, it is three years ago since you kissed me! Think what that means to a woman & a woman who is naturally demonstrative & affectionate & who only loves once in her lifetime. But you will never, never understand your nature is different altogether you cannot enter into my feelings & this is all beside the question of what am I to do until I can provide for myself.

Always your loving wife

Georgie Hockley